It's been so long

It sure has been a long time since I've posted anything. Not because I gave up on God but mostly because I forgot I had this blog going, lol.
God is God. That's the thought I am meditating on right now. I have been having some difficulty having a second child and its been quite a spiritual battle. I have periods where I give it all to God and then though envy and dreadful thoughts, I take it back and worry myself crazy.
Let go and let God, though it's been quoted quite a bit, it's such a powerful statement. We must take all those things that are bogging us down and stealing our joy in Christ and let it go, not giving up on it but giving it over to God.
God is God, he will do what is best for us. I have started to realize that I do not know myself as well as I thought and as a result, who better to hold my future in his hands but God himself.
I have been focusing on Acts and just how amazing the faith of people like Paul and Peter truly was. I want faith like that because God is God.
I hope to continue to post, as long as I don't forget, to progress my attempt to trust God more in 2014.
Psalms 34:8-O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him.
I don't think I trust God as much as I should. Why should I worry that my husband has lost his job for the second time within a year? So what if I have been trying for a second child for 3 years now? So what if my father and mother have disowned me?
God is God and I want to trust in him as much as I possibly can.
I hope to document this progress. Trust in the Lord!